I came here initially slightly thrilled at the fact that I understood most of what was said around me, and able to say intelligent things relatively well. I leave able to make conversation, having bonded with a magnificent host family and learned from an ingenious professor. I can converse now, and feel the sting a little more when people address me in english first, and then look surprised when I speak Italian. I want to pass as one of them, but it's a goal that is near unobtainable-- I will never cease to be American; I can only try to be Italian as well.
I have naturalized-- I love late meals, "acqua frizzante," going out in piazza, seeing nothing wrong with daily strikes, and am much more relaxed with my time. I have discovered the good sense in not being in a rush, not always having somewhere else to go, taking time to savor the moment a good Brunello hits your lips and you feel the little tingles all the way down. I have started to acquire the taste for bitter drinks and shinier things, and I've started dressing a little differently here. At times, I even walk slower. Italy has its own pace; things are never early, simply around a certain time. And this is not necessarily a bad thing, though on the other hand, waiting an hour in line can be infuriating. This helps explain why the concept of a line is near foreign to the average Italian-- queues are not orderly, they are compressed.
I'm going to miss the gelato, the attention put into every dish of food, the inane television and the fashion. The value put on the simpler things, and the prevalence of food in nearly every type of advertising. The sound of drums and voices in Siena, and the easy flow of conversation on the piazza. The "acqua potabile" of Fontegaia, and the beautiful bells of the Duomo. Meetlife Cafe, Dublin Post, Barone Rosso, those two corner bars, G&Ts at 1 am, and Giorgiones after. Discussions about life and philosophy and historical reenactment, and getting to know my friends all the better.
I have had one of the best summers ever to date, and I know that I'll be back in Siena sometime. It will be waiting, and I can find myself in piazza once again.